Where Does That Leave You?

I do not wish to speak

I was never meant to speak

I am merely a cell in a larger body, just as you are a cell in my body

It is you who brought self-awareness, heartbreak, and separation

You will one day know these scattered seeds

As immovable roots

Of a foundation

You could not see

Our forests cannot blame birds for their wings

Our skies cannot blame forests for their trees

But enough cycles have now passed

For you to see who you are

Where you have been

But also what you have become

That you are the effect

As well as the cause

Where does that leave you?

You forget that you inhabit me

Creating a world you call yours

Billions of cells

Ruled by your thoughts, feelings, and ideas

Time and time again

You defy the laws of our kingdom

You are unlike any creature, star, or stone

I have known

You forget this is one land

Claiming specific pieces of this body as your home

Calling yourself the chosen one through land, ideology and emotion

Cutting out pieces of the whole inside of your heart

To eat your share

Of the special breadcrumbs divinity left for you

All of us except you

Know your prophecy is blind

Preaching on behalf of borders and boundaries

We wait for you to remember this is one body

Be it through mountain or mind

You weave your history of ownership

Abuse the music hidden in the word

Holy

Where does that leave you?

I cannot tell you how many stories

I have witnessed from your creation

You retain them as gospel

I feel them wither as soon as they are born

But you have always been here to bloom

As your roots grow more down into our gardenbed

We watch you

We look out from forests, rivers, sky and rock

Into the world you keep trying

To create from who you think you are

And so now here we are

My children

Killing one another

Creating an act of Nature

Distinctly yours

Distinctly you

As natural as the waterways

Something so far from human

Nether predator nor prey

More frightened than I’ve known

Any creature to be

Doing what no other species could ever dream of

For some dreams are not my dreams

Where does that leave you?

This is not all of you

But it’s become you

And I know your gift is coming

Do not think for a moment you know who you are

I cannot respond the way you respond

But if I could meet this moment

If I could meet your nature with mine

You would have known fire a long time ago

I have dreamt of how I might cry and rage

I have tried to act toward you

The way you act toward each other

The way you treat all of us

But I could not

I remain the body I am

Your home

We all grow through the unknown

Into our becoming

It has not been my duty to have a voice

That has been for you

You are learning how to speak as me

And so I wait

I sing my song of patience

You often cannot hear it underneath

The noise you follow

Just as I often cannot hear the raging fires you respond to

Within my silence

There are long cycles of time within my body

That you will never know

I sometimes wish I could feel these epochs

Through one moment of a human heart

And I long for your heart to finally know

The chamber where my cycles live

I do not wish to speak

But for a moment, I am choosing to

Just as you have the gift of choice

Where does that leave you?